I hope you don’t mind but I posted some info on my blog http://betrayedbycybersex.wordpress.com/

My Bf is a sex addict. He’s addicted to masterbation, porn, cybersex and he’s had an affair. My blog is to help me understand this addiction. Perhaps, you can comment on my posts to help us understand. Masterbation addiction is the biggest searched for term on my blog. Also, there are a lot of significant others reading posts.

You’re very good at this.

Do you recognize the name? I’m Rhonda’s husband. I remember meeting you some years back, when I was headed for the “Wild at Heart” Retreat. You were polite and invited me to go with you to watch a movie with friends.
Yes, you did have a strong exterior, and I’m not referring to your size. You seemed cool and in control. I would not have guessed your struggle, but I appreciate your gut-level honesty as illustrated by your testimony/story.
Would you believe I struggle with sexual addictive-type behaviors that I have carried into my marriage? Of course it all began a long time ago as well. I grew up in a physically & emotionally abusive home, where my Dad beat up our mother a couple of times per month. He hit me in my right eye, and I almost lost my vision in that eye. Seeing my mother almost killed twice wounded me greatly, to say the least. To this day, I have Post Traumatic Stress responses to the events of my childhood.
I was introduced to hardcore porn at the age of eight, by the boys living behind us. Pornography struck a deep note in me even then, that resonates to this day. I can relate to your story, many elements of it. I, too, struggled with masturbation, taking the problem into my marriage, because I feared true intimacy. I used masturbation as my drug of choice. It would numb the pain of so much shame and self-hatred. I was so out of touch with my own feelings for so long that I would masturbate because it made me feel alive - instead of feeling dead, isolated and unlike others.
The good news is I am in the healing process…praise be to God. Just as I was wounded in the “relationship” with my Dad, so my healing is coming through relationships with men. I have a spiritual father that I meet with- have met with for some time. I have been in Recovery-type groups for some time as well too. Sorry I’ve talked too much.
I am encouraged by your story, Kevin, and I rejoice with you at your insight into your pain, your steps to recover. and your growth in your faith.

God bless you friend & cousin in-law!